urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind >> the sky turned dark again as the boats came in << Lucas [Kooly] 2006-10-28T07:11:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:18847 2006-10-28T07:11:30Z 2006-10-28T07:11:30Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />I would have preferred to be the one to die.<br /><br />I suppose it came down to that, didn't it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:18478 2006-10-24T05:58:43Z 2006-10-24T05:58:43Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br /><i>[a long pause]</i><br /><br />I should simply never write in this again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:18280 2006-10-21T00:03:27Z 2006-10-21T00:03:27Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br /><br /><br />I suppose you would want me to go on.<br /><br />Wouldn't you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:18078 2006-10-14T05:39:06Z 2006-10-14T05:39:06Z <b>[Filter: <s>Sh</s> Private]</b><br /><br />I<br /><br /><i>[a very long pause]</i><br /><br />Is this what you wanted? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:17690 2006-10-13T03:51:09Z 2006-10-13T03:51:09Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />she's dead.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i killed her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:17574 2006-10-08T11:10:42Z 2006-10-08T11:10:42Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />Sh <i>[the rest of the rather large block of text has been blotted out beyond readability]</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:17391 2006-10-08T04:40:24Z 2006-10-08T04:40:24Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br /><i>[a long pause followed by a series of things completely scratched out. and several long streaks of ink running down the whole page.]</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:17093 2006-10-07T23:26:21Z 2006-10-07T23:26:21Z <b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br />Is tonight too short-notice? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:16887 2006-10-02T06:05:45Z 2006-10-02T06:05:45Z <b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br /><s>I</s><br /><br />How are you doing? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:16538 2006-09-27T20:53:34Z 2006-09-27T20:53:34Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />How much longer.<br /><br /><br /><s><b>[Filter: Shasta]</b></s> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:16148 2006-09-15T06:44:49Z 2006-09-15T06:44:49Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />I'm not sure what I expect. Do I expect the world to burst into flames to stop me? Do I expect everything to stop? Time to stand still?<br /><br />How many more times will I do this.<br /><br />How much longer.<br /><br />The least I can do is be with Father on the Festival. It's the first he'll have had with me in years. It's the least I can do.<br /><br />How much longer. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:16027 2006-09-13T08:42:41Z 2006-09-13T08:42:41Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />How many more times do I plan to do this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:15852 2006-09-05T04:40:54Z 2006-09-05T04:40:54Z <b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br />Have you heard of a place called the Bright Dragon? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:15433 2006-08-17T05:19:25Z 2006-08-17T05:19:25Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />This is ridiculous. I feel like a rat, hiding out down here.<br /><br /><b>[Filter: Julian]</b><br /><br />What will I have to say to get you to talk? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:15136 2006-08-15T21:47:28Z 2006-08-15T21:47:28Z <b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br />Please get yourself to safety. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:14914 2006-08-04T05:13:40Z 2006-08-04T05:13:40Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />...<br /><br /><i>[obliterated]</i><br /><br /><b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br />Shasta. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:14752 2006-07-28T22:41:53Z 2006-07-28T22:41:53Z <b>[Private, in Old Dentorian]</b><br /><br />What am I expecting.<br /><br />It changes nothing. I can't<br /><br />I want<br /><br />What am I <i>thinking.</i><br /><br />Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot...<br /><br /><b>[Filter: Public, in Trade]</b><br /><br />My congratulations to the newlyweds. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:14518 2006-07-26T09:04:59Z 2006-07-26T09:04:59Z <b>[Filter: Private, Old Dentorian]</b><br /><br />Why do I want<br /><br /><i>stupid</i><br /><br />You'll damn yourself, are you a <i>fool</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:14170 2006-07-24T02:17:02Z 2006-07-24T02:17:02Z <b>[Filter: Private, in Old Dentorian]</b><br /><br />One night.<br /><br />We can't do it again.<br /><br />... <i>[something very methodically scratched out]</i><br /><br />Mustn't.<br /><br />...<i>Dragons</i> am I a <i>fool</i>...<br /><br /><s><b>[Filter: Shas</b></s> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:13988 2006-07-18T04:35:57Z 2006-07-18T04:35:57Z <b>[Private, in High Dentorian]</b><br /><br />Shouldn't be doing this.<br /><br /><i>Shouldn't be doing this.</i><br /><br />Don't even have any ideas. If Mydra knows I'm planning something, I'm doubtless being watched. <s>Shasta</s> I cannot take risks.<br /><br />Shouldn't be doing this.<br /><br />Dragons, I want to see her.<br /><br /><b>[Filter: Shasta, in Trade]</b><br /><br />If we could come up with somewhere between us that we could meet, this would be much easier. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:13676 2006-07-12T05:09:35Z 2006-07-12T05:09:35Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />Pick up your pen and write.<br /><br />Hiding will solve nothing.<br /><br /><i>Lucas.<br /><br />[a long pause]</i><br /><br /><b>[Filter: Public]</b><br /><br />I apologize to the visitors in the palace for not saying hello earlier. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:13364 2006-07-10T00:03:30Z 2006-07-10T00:03:30Z <b>[Filter: Private, in High Dentorian]</b><br /><br />I should say something. People will worry.<br /><br /><s><b>[Filter: Pu<br /><br />[Filte<br /><br />[Fil</b></s> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:13292 2006-07-09T14:43:43Z 2006-07-09T14:43:43Z <b>[Filter: Private]</b><br /><br />It's like I never even left.<br /><br />I should stop hiding away like this.<br /><br />I can<s>'t</s> ... <br /><br />I am Lucas.<br /><br /><i>Lucas.</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:13042 2006-07-05T00:48:40Z 2006-07-05T00:51:05Z <i>[more things scratched out]</i><br /><br /><b>[Private, in High Dentorian]</b><br /><br />The days when we used to ask one another when we'd ever use Korin. When we wondered what the point was in learning Hanalan. When I asked if maybe we should pick up Kilian instead.<br /><br />Dead.<br /><br />The day when Shasta... The day when we...<br /><br />...dead.<br /><br />Who am I. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jumbled_mind:12791 2006-07-02T02:34:58Z 2006-07-02T02:34:58Z <b><s>[Filter: Shas<br /><br />[Filter: Sh<br /><br /><i>[Filter: Shast</i></s></b><br /><br />...<br /><br /><b>[Filter: Shasta]</b><br /><br />Shasta.