WHY MUST THIS TEAR MY HEAD INSIDE OUT?

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 07:11:30 GMT

[Filter: Private]

I would have preferred to be the one to die.

I suppose it came down to that, didn't it.

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 05:58:43 GMT

[Filter: Private]

[a long pause]

I should simply never write in this again.

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:03:27 GMT

[Filter: Private]

I suppose you would want me to go on.

Wouldn't you?

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 05:39:06 GMT

[Filter: Sh Private]

I

[a very long pause]

Is this what you wanted?

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 03:51:09 GMT

[Filter: Private]

she's dead.

i killed her.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 11:10:42 GMT

[Filter: Private]

Sh [the rest of the rather large block of text has been blotted out beyond readability]

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 04:40:24 GMT

[Filter: Private]

[a long pause followed by a series of things completely scratched out. and several long streaks of ink running down the whole page.]

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 23:26:21 GMT

[Filter: Shasta]

Is tonight too short-notice?

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 06:05:45 GMT

[Filter: Shasta]

I

How are you doing?

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 20:53:34 GMT

[Filter: Private]

How much longer.

~~[Filter: Shasta]~~

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 06:44:49 GMT

[Filter: Private]

I'm not sure what I expect. Do I expect the world to burst into flames to stop me? Do I expect everything to stop? Time to stand still?

How many more times will I do this.

How much longer.

The least I can do is be with Father on the Festival. It's the first he'll have had with me in years. It's the least I can do.

How much longer.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 08:42:41 GMT

[Filter: Private]

How many more times do I plan to do this.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 04:40:54 GMT

[Filter: Shasta]

Have you heard of a place called the Bright Dragon?

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:19:25 GMT

[Filter: Private]

This is ridiculous. I feel like a rat, hiding out down here.

[Filter: Julian]

What will I have to say to get you to talk?

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 21:47:28 GMT

[Filter: Shasta]

Please get yourself to safety.

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 05:13:40 GMT

[Filter: Private]

...

[obliterated]

[Filter: Shasta]

Shasta.

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 22:41:53 GMT

[Private, in Old Dentorian]

What am I expecting.

It changes nothing. I can't

I want

What am I thinking.

Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot...

[Filter: Public, in Trade]

My congratulations to the newlyweds.

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 09:04:59 GMT

[Filter: Private, Old Dentorian]

Why do I want

stupid

You'll damn yourself, are you a fool

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 02:17:02 GMT

[Filter: Private, in Old Dentorian]

One night.

We can't do it again.

... [something very methodically scratched out]

Mustn't.

...Dragons am I a fool...

~~[Filter: Shas~~

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 04:35:57 GMT

[Private, in High Dentorian]

Shouldn't be doing this.

Shouldn't be doing this.

Don't even have any ideas. If Mydra knows I'm planning something, I'm doubtless being watched. ~~Shasta~~ I cannot take risks.

Shouldn't be doing this.

Dragons, I want to see her.

[Filter: Shasta, in Trade]

If we could come up with somewhere between us that we could meet, this would be much easier.

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 05:09:35 GMT

[Filter: Private]

Pick up your pen and write.

Hiding will solve nothing.

Lucas.

[a long pause]

[Filter: Public]

I apologize to the visitors in the palace for not saying hello earlier.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 00:03:30 GMT

[Filter: Private, in High Dentorian]

I should say something. People will worry.

[Filter: Pu

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Sun, 09 Jul 2006 14:43:43 GMT

[Filter: Private]

It's like I never even left.

I should stop hiding away like this.

I can't ...

I am Lucas.

Lucas.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 00:48:40 GMT

[more things scratched out]

[Private, in High Dentorian]

The days when we used to ask one another when we'd ever use Korin. When we wondered what the point was in learning Hanalan. When I asked if maybe we should pick up Kilian instead.

Dead.

The day when Shasta... The day when we...

...dead.

Who am I.

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 02:34:58 GMT

[Filter: Shas

[Filter: Sh

[Filter: Shast

...

[Filter: Shasta]

Shasta.